Surrender

Wow...so it's been over a month since I've posted anything on this site.  I've been struggling with some health issues lately.  Due to recurrent sinus infections and a nagging cough, I asked my doctor for a chest xray.  The xray was abnormal, and so my doctor ordered a CT scan of my lungs.  The scan showed 2 enlarged lymph nodes, as well as a "mass", which she determined was most likely just my thymus.  Needless to say, I was freaking out.  She gave me several options of how I wanted to proceed, and I chose to have some bloodwork done, as well as to meet with a cardiothoracic specialist (which my doctor felt might be overboard right now, but was fully supportive of...)  The bloodwork was all negative (Praise God), and I met with the specialist.  As my doctor suspected, the specialist does not want to do anything right now.  He ordered another CT scan for 3 months from now.  He said that the risks involved in a biopsy outweigh the chance that this is anything to be concerned about.  Uggh!  So now I wait...  Everyone I talk to tells me to hand this over to the Lord...My response, "That's what I always tell OTHER people who are having difficulties!!"  It's not so easy when it's me!  

But, that is what I have decided to do... Surrender!  Surrender my worries, surrender the uncertainty, surrender the fear.  I am trying my best to submit to His will.  I know He loves me and wants the best for me!  He will never let me fall below His resting arms.  I will remain steady and peaceful (as best I can).  I feel the prayers of all those around me, and it is a truly wonderful feeling!

My ACTS retreat is this weekend.  Thirty women, including myself, have spent 13 weeks preparing for this retreat.  Our theme for the retreat is "Come, Share your Master's Joy!"  I pray that the women who attend this retreat will be touched by the Holy Spirit, and will share in His Joy!